What am I supposed to do

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member sorry I was afk. I had to sort some stuff at home. 

Here for you. I hope you're ok. 

I know when something comes and knocks us down when we are already really down its hard to manage. It's so shit how life won't ease up. 

Take your time. Know we are here, we care. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Ru-bee my favourite board games are the Azul series. I also love scrabble. I used to play a lot of card games, but I don't know anyone who does. Cribbage was an all time favourite but it's been a long time. I play magic the gathering regularly, it's been a major hobby of mine, it's how I socialise and occupy my weekends. I made friends and I live it because most people who I play with are neurospicy too lol. 

[Former-Member]

@Ru-bee i just replied. Sorry its alot to go through. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur I'm really not ok but I just have to put on a brave face and say I'm fine. 

Things just don't stop for me. I honestly can't remember when I just had a relaxing day with no drama, not being hurt, not having a panic attack. 

Sorry if this is too much for you. I really appreciate you just being here and listening. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member I'm sorry that it's so shit. I wish life was kinder. You deserve peace. 

I have to go out, I'll be back after lunch (2-3hours away) Sorry I can't continue to suppport you. 

Lean on others where you can. You don't have to have a brave face here. Nor should you have to in life. Letting down the mask allows those around us to show they care. It's ok to cry and break down. There is no shame in that. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur thankyou for just being here. Enjoy your day. 

Right now I have no choice but to put on a brave face even though inside is a complete wreck. I'm broken into a million pieces and I'm not sure I can be put back together. 

[Ru-bee]

If you need to put on a brave face to get through today, just know that you can take it off here later on @Former-Member 💜

[Former-Member]

@Ru-bee i may very well need to do that. It's going to take every bit of my strength to get through today.

[Former-Member]

@Ru-bee let's drag the person out who is already anxious so they can have a panic attack in public and then ridicule them for it. I hate my life 😞

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member hey. 

That sucks. 

No ridicule here. I'm sorry you have to endure that. Maybe they were trying to help. Idk.