Dealing with heartbreak

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme 

sorry i just saw your last post. I don’t know what she is up too and it kills me. Plus I’m not sure if I would ever be good enough for her. I still love her with all my heart, and she probably doesn’t know That. The fact you say things will work out is really the only thing that keeps me going. 

In case I didn’t mention, I really miss her 😥

Hope you are well 

[tyme]

I know you miss her and I know you are doing your best to be your best @Rockdog - you both deserve the best. 

I hope you've had a good day. Hope work is okay. Are you looking around in terms of work?

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme 

Work needs to change, but I am stuck with what to do. I am thinking of studying my law again, but because of my dramas my enrolment has expired. Now I need permission from the Board and the Dean of the University. They said they would help get me through, now that is a drama. I really don’t know what to do. Yeah I miss her so much. It will work out though right? 😊

Hope you are going well. What have you been up to? How was your holiday?

[tyme]

Just keep at it @Rockdog 

After your law degree, what can you do with the qualification?

Also, my holiday was really good. Besides me needing a break from the noise of kids, it was great being in touch with Country 🙂

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme 

Glad you had a good holiday, and break from the kids lol. 
I have my degree, this is extra to be admitted to the Supreme Court. From there I can practice, but only under supervision for 2 years. And who would hire me. But I would look smarter lol.

I honestly don’t even know if I open that box up again. When I get more positive I feel like it, and that it would make me feel better about myself and more worthy of her. Then I think I should go down another path, or just do something less stressful. It will happen though won’t it? 😊

[tyme]

Yes @Rockdog . Are you ready for it?

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme

I really am, but there are still some things to work on, so maybe not fully ready. I don’t really know who I am or what I want. At this stage I guess I really don’t feel worthy. But when I think of her I get a real sense of peace and warmth. Then it disappears because I get anxious I will never meet her again. That is why your reassurance means so much. Hope you had a good weekend.😊 

[Rockdog]

Hi @tyme 

I went for a walk this morning and there was a white feather on the path.

It was off to the side though, not right  in front of me, but still there 🙂

[tyme]

Nice! @Rockdog  You need to take a photo of that feather and have it on your phone background. It's important. 

I can't say you see many feathers lying around. That's your special sign 🙂

Good on you. Hope you are okay.

[Rockdog]

Really? I see them all the time now. I did take a photo. I kept the special one that was right in the middle of path at the time I walked by. It is on my kitchen window. I see feathers all the time, but not her anywhere. It has been 2 years, she could be engaged or married now or anything. The anxiety gets to me about what she is doing. I know focus on me but I can’t help it. I am taking 2 weeks off work for mental stress but at the end of it all I still don’t know where I’m going. Maybe that is why we haven’t met. Hope you are going well? What are you up to?