Good Morning!

[outlander]

@Former-Member

err yuk. our house is still havng viruses it started with mums bf then sisters now pop hopefully it goes soon. luckily the kids are at school and i disinfect the house so its keeping the germs at bay as best i can manage.

you had a fall!!!? are you ok? what happened?- you dont ahve to answer those.

[outlander]

im still the same @Ant7  its a dreadful realisation to have to have made. im not really sure how to go from here anyway. i dont belong here, i dont beleong in my so called family, i dont belong anywhere.

you dont have to be sorry

[Adge]

Good evening everyone,

I hope your day was good.

I often leave for work early in the morning, so don't have a chance to say good morning...

I still got soggy socks today (there is a leak in my shoe) - it was much better than Friday, though.

On Friday we were out walking with a client, & it rained suddenly very heavily - we couldn't reach shelter or the car in time.

So I was utterly drenched right through everything. Soggy socks was an under-statement.... I went home hours later still wet, until I could change clothes.

We kind of laughed about it, it was so extreme - that hasn't happened in years...

Adge

[Former-Member]

Hello again @outlander

Is your mother saying you ruined her life @outlander - or is that something you feel without that being said? I had a child out of wedlock when 19 (pregnant at 18, father asked me to marry him but I said no. We lived together for 10 painful years but never do I blame my children). And I do remember that life transition as being a direct result of the choices I made. I also remember the incredible love and bond I felt for my son, regardless of the hardship it did inflict as a result of my doing, I also experienced a love I had never known and a incredible bond. It's was a beautiful life saving experience (stopped me from drinking so much - responsibility can do that).  My son was a gift.

If I was to of blamed my son for my own actions and resulting consequences I would have to say the deficency and problem lyed with me - not my son. And life does not stop when we have children. To blame that 20 years or so on for our problems now is a scapegoat and not the reality. A person is responsible for how their lives turn out - how they deal with what life throws at them. Blaming is a form of denial. 

Believe me a loving child is the greatest gift we can ever be offered. I know, I lost mine. 

[outlander]

well then good evening now @Adge better late than never.

wow you mustve got heaps of rain! we did here too not so much in the morning though more like after 11 it was pouring down!

im glad you can laught about getting drenched and having a leaking shoe!

[outlander]

@Former-Member do you mind if i move this convo over to another thread, i dont want to ruin the mood for anyone here..

[Former-Member]

Of course not @outlander 

[outlander]

thanks @Former-Member

[Ant7]

@outlander I think that @Former-Member has put it really well you should not blame your self. I know you are in pain and I know how that can feel. I hope you know people are hear for you. I am sending you positive thoughts ❤️💕

[outlander]

Thanks @Ant7 ❤ ❤