What am I supposed to do

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur hi. Thankyou. 

[Former-Member]

@Today hi, thanks for your kind words. Hope you are doing ok. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur thanks for your kind words earlier. 

Hope you are doing ok? 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member I'm worn out. I go out most of Saturdays i just got home when I saw the other thread. 

More importantly I hope YOU are ok. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur hope you at least had a good day. Try to get some rest. Sorry, I won't bother you. 

I'm not really ok but I'm trying to stick around for as long as I can. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member I'll be up for a little while longer, until my meds kick in. 

What's up my friend. 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur everything has just hit hard and I'm not able to calm down. Imagine being on a crisis line telling them how you feel and the thoughts you are having only to be told 'oh I have to wrap the chat up here, take care' and they just leave. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member that sounds really difficult. Beyond difficult. 

Some help lines have time limits on calls. I.e. suicide call back is only 20min. I'm not justifying what they did, but they have striking boundaries with their clients. 

I too have been caught by that and was like, wtf, I need help, and they were like oh well, I have to go. Then they leave you alone with the thoughts and feelings so you are worse off than before. 

I don't have much advice on how to calm down and regulate. 

Do you ever do any swimming, or have any swimming toys. They help me when my nervous system is on fire. 

[The-red-centaur]

@Former-Member STIMMING not swimming 

[Former-Member]

@The-red-centaur this crisis line isn't time limited like that. It's just like as soon as they get to talking about the thoughts they just end the chat. Which makes it even worse cos then it's all just playing on my mind even more. 

I don't do swimming or have anything like that. I'm just sick of trying everything possible when nothing is working.