Morning has broken

[Eve7]

My gp has just moved to a new practice @Snowie and I don’t want to talk to anyone else so will just have to wait. Pdoc will only do her scripts which is fair enough.

How’s your day going?

[Snowie]

A good gp can be hard to find @Eve7 I'm glad you have found someone. Hopefully by next week your gp is better and can see you. I would change practices to, to be able to stay with my gp.

I made it to the couch today. Haven't moved much from there.

[Eve7]

I’m on the couch now too @Snowie  The  junk cupboard is almost done but it’s been hard today as I’ve been through all h’s final medical records. I’ve thrown most of them out as the cause is on his d..th certificate.

[Snowie]

That must be hard to sort through @Eve7 Almost like you are reliving it.

Mum still has all of my Dad's. She hasn't touched them since he passed away.

I don't think I will move from the couch until I go to bed again. Bed is safer however. At least today I have had something, even if it was just an Up and Go.

Do you have to go anywhere the next few days, or can you just rest at home?

[Eve7]

I have pdoc tomorrow @Snowie  so I can’t unload on her if needed. Right now I’m just numb.

Do you have much happening for the rest of the week?

[Snowie]

Maybe unloading onto the pdoc might help @Eve7 Sometimes just getting the words out can help.

Really need to go see mum tomorrow. Have pdoc in afternoon but just a phone appointment. Still lots to discuss. Was going to have a break from ECT but not sure he will let me now. Have ECT Friday.

[Eve7]

I am a bit scared to unload too much @Snowie  but we’ll see.

Do you think the ECT is helping? It’s a hard one I know. I haven't had any since January but I’m getting a bit edgy again.

[Snowie]

I can understand not wanting to unload too much @Eve7 Hopefully when talking to her you can come up with the right balance.

I do think ECT is helping in a way. I think if I wasn't having it monthly I would have ended up being admitted quite awhile ago. With mum being at home, I really couldn't go in. There would have been no one to give her that one on one support. Now I guess it is a little different, as I don't have to worry about her as much.

I would like to see how I go without it but at the same time I am scared to stop it. If that makes sense.

Have you talked to your pdoc about it recently?

[Eve7]

I totally understand your fear @Snowie  its hard to know what to do sometimes and it can be better to have that decision taken away from us.

My pdoc hasn’t mentioned it for a while but she does ask what do I think I need at times. I think she wants me to make the decision.

Ill have the junk cupboard cleared out tomorrow afternoon!!

[Snowie]

My pdoc has asked me quite a few times what I think about stopping or continuing it @Eve7 I really am unsure. Maybe I do need him to make the decision for me. But to do that I guess I need to tell him everything.

Hoping you do clear the junk cupboard tomorrow. Can you come and do mine next!!!