I can’t cope

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 could a smaller step make it seem a bit less daunting today? Could you just tell yourself you're just going to take a shower and not wash your hair...and just see how you go, maybe once you're there you'll feel able to wash it, maybe not but at least having a quick shower might be a way to show yourself some care  

[Captain24]

It took so much out of me just getting into that shower. I put the shampoo in my hair and then the hot water ran out. I had to put on some clothes and go out the front and change the gas bottles over (with the shampoo still in my hair!) then I had to get myself back in to finish washing my hair and body. @Ru-bee. Today is just not the day for me. That just cemented the way I’m feeling. 

[Ru-bee]

Oh no @Captain24 but look at you go! The day hasn't been going your way but you're taking steps to get through anyway! Is the next task going to get the dog food or will that wait fora bit later in the afternoon?

[Captain24]

Yeah. I went to the vet to get Jett’s food and medication for Pix but they didn’t have much food or the medication. I have to go back Wednesday. @Ru-bee 

I did do a quick grocery shop while I was out though. I needed to get some pasta and the girl was filling the shelf and was really annoyed that I needed to get there. 

I really can’t catch a break today. The more I keep trying the more that goes wrong. I know it wasn’t much but it just adds to my day. 

Im sorry. I’m doing the best I can with nothing. 

[Captain24]

@Ru-bee Are you still around?

I feel like today is going from bad to worse. 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 I'm still around! Just floating in the background catching up on some tasks but I'm here!

I so hear you on those things that might seem trivial or might laugh off on a good day, but just compound your bad mood on a bad one. The worst thing is that when we're already having a hard day these things are so much easier to notice and focus on, whereas the nice things that might make us feel a tiny bit better are so hard to spot.

One thing I did really like that you mentioned is that you're doing the best you can and it really sounds like you are, even though the universe isn't giving you much to work with today

[Captain24]

Sorry I bothered you @Ru-bee. I didn’t mean to interrupt. I’ll let you finish. 

I really am sorry. 

[Ru-bee]

You didn't bother me or interrupt @Captain24 I was coming over to check on the forums and take a break from the other tasks. You can always tag me and I'll respond when I can. It's never a bother!

[Captain24]

Mum just called and my cousin has been diagnosed with uterine cancer @Ru-bee. They have it early so she should be ok but it’s just another thing to add to my day. I know that sounds really selfish and I’m not a good person in thinking that. But what else?

[Ru-bee]

Ah that's such crummy news @Captain24 I'm sorry to hear that. It's absolutely okay to have your own feelings about that and to feel like it's another thing that has made today hard for you, because it has! 

I'm about to hop into a meeting and then I'm finishing up but I wanted to send you a virtual hug before I hop off here 💜