I can’t cope

[Captain24]

So I’ve done my list for the day, it wasn’t much though. I feel better for having accomplished something. My body is still exhausted though. I still have things to do but I need to listen to my psych and do what she says and focus on only a small amount everyday. 

Now to try the whole dropping anchor again. 

[Captain24]

  

[AuntGlow]

Good afternoon @Captain24!

Thank you for your patience. I know it can come across like I don't care if there is a delay, but I will always respond when I can, and if I don't get to you promptly, it's just because I am finishing other admin tasks - I absolutely care about you and your wellbeing. 🥰

That's interesting how one meet-up was for you and the other was for your friend - did you get anything from being there for your friend? And let's explore that feeling of being with R when dropping anchor? 

Yes, being in that energetic space with someone you feel safe with helps so much. I am glad you will get to see her in November, it sounds like she allows you to really open up. 

How have you been taking care of yourself today?

And I saw the photos! Thank you - so cute!!

[Captain24]

It’s ok if you don’t care @AuntGlow. I get things get busy but if I’m just a bother please say so and I’ll leave you alone. 

Being there for her was hard. She can be draining. It wasn’t like the day before with R when I didn’t know the time had passed by. But it felt like I was being a considerate person. Putting others first. 

The feeling with R was one of mutual respect. It was comfort. It was connection that I don’t feel with anyone else. It was joyful. It was peaceful. 

She is amazing. She gets me. She has lived experience of trauma so she really understands not just textbook. Plus she has ADHD so that’s where she saw it in me and wanted me to get assessed. 

I did my jobs this morning and now I’m watching my third movie for the day. 

[tyme]

Ello there @Captain24 ,

Congrats on getting your jobs done! Whoohoo!

I didn't plan anything today, but I felt I tackled all the things that were thrown at me so I also feel accomplished. 

I've just followed on the last document I'm waiting on for my last sticky note to be complete though.

Thanks for the photos

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

I didn’t do much but I planned it that way so I could achieve something but not push. I’m trying to listen to my psych. 

That is an achievement. Nothing new added as you didn’t as it popped up! That’s well done. No putting it off or procrastinating! 

That’s good, it’s almost done!!! 

I need to take some decent pics of them. 

How are you going? How’s old mate going that’s staying at your house? 

[AuntGlow]

Never! @Captain24 💛

Mmm, that is a tricky one too. The friends we find flow with are such gifts, aren't they? I am sure being in that space felt really safe for you. 

Perhaps your other connection can be reserved for when you have space to be there for her? It's okay to set loving boundaries; to say no until you can say yes. 

Ah, she sounds wonderful. It would be great to hear more about what you have learned when I am on next - I will be back on Sunday. 

Umm, love this balance of work and play for you btw! 🤩

[tyme]

🙂

Arghhh...life.

Just keeps going round and round. I'm glad you taken a step back and listened to your psych. It's a good start.

My sister wanted me to trim a bit of hair around Ruby's eyes. I need to do that... maybe on the weekend?

Now that you mention it, I haven't even spoken to the fellow at my other house. I don't even know how he's going! I might msg him lol. He's so quiet. Doesn't interfere. Just plods along... poor fellow. He needs company.

I got a phone call earlier today to support families with behaviour for their kids.. as a behaviour therapist. So many families out there struggling. But as you know, I need to step back and just do what I can. I can't 'fix' the world.

I spoke to the mother of that household today... the kids were soooo delighted with the clothes I gave them! They were stoked that the clothes fit @Captain24  Melts my heart.

[Captain24]

Yeah she is right. I need to look after myself @tyme I did wake up feeling a little better than yesterday though. 

How does it go trimming her eyes? Both my would bite me!! Before and after pics sound good! 

I hope it’s going well for him. Keeping quiet and plodding along sounds like it’s going well.

That sounds like a great opportunity. It would be amazing to be asked to do it? Do you have time for it? No you can’t fix everything. Just one little step can make a change to the world. 

Im glad that they appreciate the clothes. I’m guessing under their circumstances they don’t get a lot of new clothes. 

Whats your plans for tomorrow? 

[Captain24]